Awake again...

With all three of my pregnancies, the last month is marked by one thing....insomnia! I have the most awful time getting comfortable and am completely unable to sleep. For some, baby coming means less sleep. For me, it means MORE! With Britton I would lay on the couch and watch tv and try to sleep as I had to teach the next day. With Aidan, I would lay on the couch, watch tv and panic over having another child. With Liam, since he is our last, I find myself sitting in my chair, gazing out my window, thinking of my past two pregnancies and how different they have been. Last night was no different than any other night. About 3 a.m. I awoke and couldn't go back to sleep. I was burning up, though everyone else in the house was covered as if they were sleeping in a blizzard, and I was uncomfortable. So, instead of tossing and turning, I got up, when to Liam's room and sat in my chair and looked out the window. As I sat there I thought about how when Liam gets here, I will be able to sleep a little more again. Then I started remembering what it was like for each child and myself when they awoke in the middle of the night. I feel like I need to write them down, as I hadn't realized I remembered so much and someday I may forget....

Britton:

When Britton was a newborn, he wouldn't sleep unless he was holding my finger. I would take my pillow and put it half on my bed and on the side of his bassinet and hold his finger all night long. When he was awakening for a feeding, he would just belt it. Let out a scream. There was no building up to it. He was hungry and he wanted fed...NOW! I would nurse Britton, and sometimes we fell asleep together. I would awaken 2 hours later and try to put him in his bed, but no go..he needed my finger or me holding him!

Aidan:

When Aidan was a newborn, I didn't nurse. So, he would sleep a little longer than Brit. He would sleep in his bassinet and I would hear him start to stir. I knew that it meant it was time for him to eat. I would roll over, and hit the button on the bottle warmer and sneak in a few more z's before he really started to fuss, 2 minutes later! He would eat and then I would place him in his bed. He was back to sleep before I could get laid back down.

Each child so different. I am so curious as to how Liam will be. Will he be a screamer, feed me now, darn it...or will he just fuss a bit until he gets his bottle. I am so excited for him to be here. Ready to start our life with him. We are already making plans that include him, aka, vacation in October, vacation in December, wedding in June....but I am ready for him to be here now. I wanna see how Aidan reacts the first time he sees him. I cannot wait. I wanna see Britton the first time he kisses his brother's head. (he kisses my tummy now all the time and says, Hi Liam, it's Britton and I love you.) I know that he will be here for sure in a month, but that seems so far away. Especially since I do not sleep. I can wait, sure, but do I want to? No way! I wanna see this sweet baby now. Our final member of our family...Liam Jakob.....how will YOU make your mark on this family?! We will see soon enough!